u rlly never kno wat u got till itz gone

boo left today, i was rlly upset about it but after he left i was neutral. it wasnt unusual, him being gone for a bit. i began to draw, to do things that i normally wouldnt get to do if he was around, things "on my own".

but after a while i lost my inspiration, i lost all will to do anything. i became...bored.

i started to miss him a lot, and i realized just how different i was widout him being around. it finally sunk in that he wasnt coming back for a while, my eyes suddenly grew tired.

it's just not the same.

and so i sit here, remembering wat it means to truely...be BORED. when i was with him i was never alone, and, for all those who dont know, i hate being alone...so for me it was good.

so right now i feel like im going so psychotic...before i couldnt find the time to do ne thing, now i feel like i got all the time in the world...time that passes slowly. im restless, but i dont feel like doing things.

this sucks.

man itz gonna b a long 2 weeks.

-rei